After

Anna Todd: My life before him was so simple and decided, now after him...It's just...After

Me: My life before this book was so simple and decided, now after it ...It's just...Depressing

gather around children let me show you what emotional abuse looks like *swallows back vomit* 

WHAT DO WE WANT? BOOKS THAT DON'T ROMANTICIZE ABUSERS! WHEN DO WE WANT THEM? BOOKS THAT DON'T ROMANTICIZE ABUSERS!

I just really hated the way the characters handled everything (which is a phat portion of the book) there are quite a few instances of emotional abuse and mental illness that are handled super poorly by the characters which really pissed me off. honestly if I had been in the main character's (Tessa) position I would have upped and moved away from all that mess after the fifth chapter. I get that if all the characters functioned super healthily it would be boring and you could say "well bish not every book ends in someone figuring out how to be emotionally mature" and you would be totally right some books literally show people falling apart and thats the end. thats literature baby. but my issue here is that at the high points in their relationship she's still with someone who is incredibly emotional abusive. like wow they are finally in such a great place...he's still controlling and cruel...but they're using their inside voices so thats good right? they keep making the same mistakes and trusting the wrong people and the toxic behavior just gets really boring. and if I'm being honest some stuff goes down that Tessa gets over and I find it so far fetched that in the span of a semester she is able to go through and recover from the shit people put her through. in twilight bella had a whole seasonal montage of sadness and she got dumped, Tessa gets humiliated and tormented and pops back up like a daisy. it just made me angry and upset after reading it. you can ask my boyfriend I read the second one just out of anger and the desire to know if Tessa calls bs and leaves everyone (spoiler alert no change still making sub par choices) so ya the characters mare annoying and they're sucky and overall you will want to pull your hair out. but thats just one woman's opinion. if you love super rocky relationships, main characters that do exactly the opposite of what you want them to, and a whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooole 

lot of super detailed sex scenes then this is probably for you. 

thanks for reading 

p.s. if there is ever a guy that I think a friend should stay away from they will not be getting "just stay away from him, he's bad news". oh no sister. I'm spilling the whole tea. I will give you a powerpoint on every skeleton in their closet if I think they are going to emotionally reck my friend.

p.p.s I just found out this is a 1D fanfic and I am currently gaging she really try to mix harry styles and fifty shades of grey someone take away this woman's computer

The Darkest Star

have you ever gotten something completely out of the blue that you didn't even think to think of but desperately needed? like subconsciously? like a laser guided pizza cutter or a colonoscopy? kidding I feel like they schedule those. okay but really that was this book was everything I didn't know I needed and more. ladies and gentlefolk, jennifer has done it again. for those of you who have read the lux series (if you haven't get your life together asap) you know that it's completed and has been for a phat minute and since I live under a rock and jennifer has already done like two spinoff novels this one shocked me. like cattle fence that you grab thinking its a regular fence shocked. where did this come from? idk heaven possibly.....im not going to question the miracle. so the Darkest Star *deep inhale* HOLYSHITTHATWASLITERALLYLIKEHTEREVIVALTHATINEEDEDINORDERTOSURVIVE

so ya. it was amazing. this book was about Luc and Evie Dasher five years after the invasion and it was so magically delicious I cried several times. we get to see some of our favorite extraterrestrials *if you know you know* and this story is just amazing. again I didn't even think this was a possibility but here we are slack jawed as our queen jennifer pulls off yet ANOTHER masterpiece. shook after shook after shook. plot twist after plot twist after plot twist. FOLLOWED BY PLOT TWIST. I'm talking put down the book and stare at a wall trying to understand what just happen plot twist. I mean this book wrecked my heart in the best way. we all know JLA has a way with words and bish does it again, her dialogue is witty and amazing as per usually and her characters will become your best friends. which is a little depressing but thats a discussion for another time. this is one of the first books I have had time to read since summer vacation and it was so beautiful and the perfect book to yank me back into the world of fandoms and goodreads. I think more than anything what I loved about this book was it brought back my favorite universe, I thought it was over but theres clearly so much more going on. if you don't resinate just imagine if you favorite show stopped airing and some time later they randomly say "hey we are back to rock your world your welcome." so yes amazing characters, amazing plot, Evie is one of my favorite new characters (bad bish), and Luc is Luc which was just amazing. if you don't read and then want this book to have your babies then you probably don't like puppies and never believed in Santa.